Saturday, October 31, 2009

I. Could. Never. Please. You.

I want to write about this, but I haven't yet.
but this came about... definitely murky brain material. ho hum.

      * day and night .. all the world is a stage *

It was an experiment in perfecting the blue, which obviously the camera didn't quite well capture :(
Oh..well.. I love stick figures.

Friday, October 30, 2009

And the discovery of a workable medium.

So, I gave up on watercolors.
but soft pastels and fingers, work much better. A tad messy, but hey, I can handle it.
Made in 10 minutes that too !! I'm pleasantly surprised myself :D

daydream delusion

    limousine eyelash
oh baby with your pretty face
      drop a tear in my wineglass.
look at those big eyes on your face
     see what you mean to me
         sweat cakes and milk shakes
  I'm a delusion angel
      I'm a fantasy parade
  I want you to know what I think
          don't want you to guess anymore
you have no idea where I came from
we have no idea where we're going
  lodged in life like branches in a river
     flowing downstream
        caught in the current
     I'll carry you    you carry me
   that's how it could be
        don't you know me
don't  you   know  me  by  now.

- David Jewell for the movie "Before Sunrise"

David Jewell, awesome awesome person that he is, said he'd like it for a book cover. Yay ME. :)
He was the start of all the good things happening in my life.
Follow your heart. Follow your dreams. 
It might be hard. But eeess gooood :) 

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Giving up on watercolor.

Indian Madonna, much ??
Have no clue where this weird thing came up from in my murky brain.
Something's not right about it , no ?
Contemporary art, interpretation of which

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


I don't really know where this came from or how , so if anybody would like to interpret, it would be nice.
But yes, first the painting happened ( my 1st ever attempt at watercolor, so meh~) and then the writing.

Broken black records that still play
our favorite songs in twisted old melodies,
All my 70's clothes and all your blessed spirits,
Woo-ed by the smoke around us.


The pink circles we spun-
round and round. within.without.


Blue days on beaches,
Sunshine on old boats.


The whispered whiff of your mother's coffee.


The crack that sounded that first heartbreak.


Your favorite western on your father's old TV,
with my favorite popcorn. All jumbled together.
On that funny purple armchair,
that Grandma Rose left us.

beep ...... beep

From there we reigned,
The king of illiterature, and,
the queen of clowns.

With kisses and laughter, and,
tears and hugs.
Some cuss words,
and those famous fights.

- oh how you laughed at me -

beep ...... beep....... beep

All of this beep
In my trembling heart beep
In your silent eyes beep
My fingers in your hair beep

All of this ..beeeeeeeeeeeP..
Our kaleidoscope dreams B EE P
Made on lazy afternoon car drives ..beeeeeeeeP..
The things I said, the things you did B EE P

All of this. * BeeeP *
I see. I saw. b e e eeeee e e p
As you walk away from me b e e eeeee e e p
I feel. I hold. * BeeeP *

*Be e ee e ee e ee e ee e ee e ee e ee e ee e P*

Within me.

*B e e e e e 

m'am you have to leave the room right now.....

e e e e e P*


Without you.

*B e e e e e 


someone get her out of here, we're losing him....


e e e e e e P*


( I'm sorry m'am, I'm afraid we've lost him )

- let go -

Tuesday, October 20, 2009


... is an excuse,
I made -
For the creativity;
That they tried
to kill.
That I allowed,
to be shackled.
Held back.
Inside that black hole,
of black words
and the blackest paint.

Inside of  me.

Unnecessary emotion.
Necessary evil.

n.o.t  a.n.y.m.o.r.e

* Weeel...I is bach to teh writings...i mean, trying to write *

-A thousand Huzzahs to free expression and mad impulses and creativity gone wild -

The Take10! Campaign

Official figures report that in Jan-Oct 2007, 18,039 people in the city were tested for HIV at government testing centres. Of these, 12.27%tested positive. These figures exclude the thousands of people already living with HIV in Pune, along with those who are as yet unaware of their HIV+ status.

Launched in November 2006, Wake Up Pune is a coalition of NGOs corporate companies, local businesses and interested individuals. We also have a number of local supporters including Extentia, Cerillion , INOX, E-Square etc. The coalition works towards spreading awareness about HIV and AIDS in the city of PuneIndia.

Why young people?

Traditionally HIV AIDS awareness has been centred on ‘high risk groups’ amongst the lower socio-economic groups e.g. truck drivers, commercial sex workers and the uneducated.
However, with over 33% of all new HIV infections occurring in the age-group 15-29, Wake Up Pune understands and acknowledges the need for youth-centred HIV awareness to address vulnerability among young people arising from lack of accurate information and low risk perception.
We have in the past conducted awareness workshops at several educational institutes such as St. Vincent’s School, BMCC college, ILS, Wadia’s. We also successfully ran HIV & AIDS Awareness events at several inter-college fests last year including one at Pune University MBA department and at Bhartiyam 2009 at Bhartiya Vidya Peeth, Katraj.

What is Take10!
The Take10! Campaign is a new youth initiative launched by Wake Up Pune Coalition this July with support from Staying Alive Foundation, MTV Global Networks. It is a completely youth-led campaign that gives young people 10 simple ways to join the fight against HIV in Pune city. The campaign provides a space to learn about HIV in Pune and other related issues particularly of the stigma and discrimination faced by people living with HIV in the city. But the campaign doesn't stop there. It furthers the awareness and learning by turning it into opportunity for action through small projects on awareness through creative media such as Film, Theater, Creative Writing, Cricket, Photography etc.

The future is too important to be lost under the burden of unnecessary ignorance, denial and discrimination that don't help the situation at all. We must face this together and be the change we want to see!!
Learn about HIV!  .  Get Tested!   .  Break the silence!  .  Write !  . Get Artistic!  .  Click A Pic!  .  Shoot A Film!  .  Play Cricket!  .  Theatre!  .  Support Positive Living!  .  Fight Stigma and Discrimination!  .  

 - Being HIV POSITIVE means, being positive about awareness, education and support of people living with HIV - 

I worked with the brilliant team as Assistant Campaign Co-ordinator as well as running Awareness bootcamps, Sex and Sexuality discussions, Field and Outreach Visits, Kiosks, plus heading the Art and Photography projects as well as Online, Social Media and Creative components.
I learnt a lot and it was a great experience being part of such a movement. 
 Reality is very good earthing in today's world.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

The Gothic-Hippie.

what. WHAT ? er... wooot.

it's my self-fashioned weird ass stereotype to bust all stereotypes.
and this in my dark,black blog, is a hippie doodle that i drew.

for all the psychedelia and bohemia in our lives and its happy lovers 
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